Tearing The “Asshole” Out Of YouTube
by boh3m3 on Oct.18, 2008, under Random Thoughts
I’m yanking the dead meat off of YouTube like fat ole Uncle Jessup at Thanksgiving grabbing a drumstick.
I’ve been mulling over removing many of my videos from YouTube for a long time. Occasionally in stupid emotional fits, others in cold rationality, and yet again after enough drinks to put down a medium sized caribou. But this time it’s in the works and I won’t take any bitching about it, mainly because the videos aren’t really leaving as such. They are just migrating.
Anything that contains copyrighted material is being torn out and remastered. Any video that I think is either topic-based and long past it’s expiration date or is not work I am proud of will be ripped from it’s sockets. After the peices are scrubbed and primped, they will be Frankensteined here for those of you who actually enjoy the videos.
Allow me to explain: Haberdashery is a big step for me. Huge, actually. It’s a reinvention in the most extreme sense of the word in that I don’t plan on going back to the old state of mind. Ever.
YouTube appealed to me originally because it was the upstart rebel platform to the established, hulking giants of the media. Now, it IS the damn media and the nastiest people are settling in like maggots in a rotting log. I saw the revolutionary turn into the dictator, and I decided it best to leave town.
What I mean when I say I’m not going back is I never want to be the person I became during those two years on YouTube. The slightest taste of pseudo-fame was enough to inflate my ego and waistline to cartoonish proportions. I became bitchy, boring, and starved for inspiration. My muse had moved out, taking everything with her, including the coat hangers and ice cube trays.
When I left that site for what was originally supposed to be a few weeks, I felt alright. No… better than alright. I felt fucking fantastic. It was a liberation to not stress or evaluate myself based on comments, views and subscribers. It was a relief to not feel any pressure to produce anything on demand and it was a godsend to not have to deal with the asinine and sometimes destructive feedback from my work. To truly let that which does not matter slide.
My “work”. Pfft. I’ll tell you now what you should have already known: that wasn’t shit. I don’t mean to offend you all who enjoyed it, but I’m generally not proud of my first two years’ worth of work1. I was more proud of my achievements than the work I had done to get them. To this day I am mortified whenever someone watches one of those videos in my presence.
I was a talking head screaming into a microphone and cussing my way into the most subscribed list on a crest of teenagers who were just thrilled to see someone older than them just as angst ridden and surly2.
Boil it down guys and strip it of sometimes witty one-liners and my editing style3 and what have you got? A bitter waiter-cum-critic throwing himself around his bedroom in fits over the inconsequential. Makes me feel like the goddamn Tourettes Guy, sans fashionable neck-brace and Tony the Tiger shirt. I guess I understand why people liked that to a degree, but that’s no way to make a name for yourself.
My father used to tell me that I should remember my name will be attached to whatever I turn in. Meaning, of course, that whatever you do should be worth having your name on. Haberdashery is the first of many projects that I am working on that I am proud to attach my namesake to. I consider each frame of every video a “Hail Mary” to my muse and an apology to the people who enjoy my sense of humor but not the way I acted initially.
So that is it. YouTube is now nothing more to me than a video hosting site. I intend to host Haberdashery there in the meantime, but I have no qualms about yanking it out by it’s root and planting it on another site. Youtube loved me, fucked me, beat me and left me for dead. It’s hard to feel anything nice about a site like that and a community so fickle.
Any rants or videos that qualify as “videoblog” turf will be hosted off of YouTube and embedded here in blog posts for your enjoyment.
I value all of the people who supported me there for so long, and it’s my dearest hope that they keep up with me either here or through the channel. I hope you understand that I cannot be a part of that world knowing how I reacted to it.
Consider this my pseudo-farewell. I don’t plan on answering comments there any longer4, nor do I intend to write another word on the subject. I’ll hobble my fingers and cut out my tongue if I so much as mention YouTube or the drama it farts out on a daily basis. I’m shrugging off the weight of that site, and lemme tell you I feel as if I can fucking FLY.
THIS is my new home, and I intend to make it the best it can possibly be within my abilities.
I’m standing on a rock surrounded by sea, but this is MY damn rock and I’ll paint it how I like. I’ll shout whatever I want from it at the top of my lungs without apology. I’ll make a lasso out of my words and art to snare your eyes and minds. I’ll chisel it into funny shapes and stand on it one-legged and covered in blue paint if I damn well please.
You’re welcome on my rock. We’ll make bonfires out of the scrap wood we pull from stiff overpaid actors and celebrity tabloids. We’ll have satirical intellectual orgies so lush and extravagant Caligula will peek out of his grave long enough to say “fuckin’ show off.” We’ll hyperbole our simile like a metaphorical swordfish ten miles long and powered by rocket fuel. But mostly we’ll get drunk and wonder what the fuck I meant by that last sentence.
I don’t need whatever YouTube might have to offer me, and I prefer the distance this site puts between myself and the casual watcher there. If someone isn’t interested enough in my dealings to come to this page then so be it. They aren’t invited to the party, which is all the more snackies and booze for us.
So thank you all again for subscribing, commenting, or even just popping in for 20 seconds to sneer and click away.
I promise you the work I do from now on will be the best I can offer, and I can only apologize for the mistakes of the past by actions and not words.
Welcome to the rock.
-B
1: With a few exceptions, which will be left on the boh3m3 channel.
2: Not my words there, but the words of a commenter. Checking my insight demographics, he’s absolutely right.
3: Which, let me tell you, is nothing special. All I did was obsessively remove the “umms” and “ahhs” and dead air amongst my ramblings.
4: Not that I really did that much anyhow…
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October 18th, 2008 on 9:33 am
I really enjoyed those videos. Too bad you didn’t then. ;)
But me and everyone else who liked them has to respect your decisions, I guess…
Have a good one. And DON’T get voice actors for Haberdashery!
October 18th, 2008 on 9:51 am
Even though I love your early “work,” I totally respect your decision to remove them (or at least the one’s you don’t like anymore). If the artist is not happy with his/her own work, then what’s the point.
And you’re right about YouTube becoming too mainstream. Half of the YouTube population have gone Hollywood (if I have to see one more YouTuber show off their famous friends, I’m gonna puke!).
October 18th, 2008 on 10:00 am
Before i take the oath of allegiance to the rock, please let me get these words out. I support you Ben, but without wanting to sound hubristic, I think I speak for a section of your fans when I say:
I liked that angst-ridden, opinionated Twenty-something who carelessly broadcasted intelligent commentary and riveting anecdote on youtube. I liked the obsession, the ego that drew you to site, that forced regular videos. I understand that was harmful to you though.
And while i appreciate haberdashery and your prose, part of me yearns for the old boh3m3. I don’t disagree with anything you say, I only implore you to leave the old videos unfrankensteined. As we remember them, as unadulterated snippets of your past; don’t change them ben.
October 18th, 2008 on 10:12 am
@Travis: I’m glad we see eye-to-eye on the mainstream corruption of YouTube. It’s changed my friends and fucked things up royally.
@Will: I’m not discounting the past for what it was. Whatever it was that you all saw in those videos, I am glad for it. Without you all I would not be where I am today, and it’s in pursuit of creating better content that I am weeding the garden of my work. I would rather have a few excellent videos up with nothing else around them instead of being buried among over a hundred ones I don’t care much for.
As for changing the videos, I have no choice for quite a few of them. The ones with copyrighted material must be removed and retooled, for each minute they remain they jeopardize my account and my credibility. It’s a service to the people who want to watch those videos that I am offering to reprocess them clean. Honestly I would prefer just trashing the ones with any copyright content since it would make my life a great deal easier, but I feel I owe it to everyone to put in the effort and make them available.
October 18th, 2008 on 11:18 am
“Remorse, for example, is as undesirable in relation to our art as it is in relation to our bad behaviour. the badness should be hunted out, acknowledged and, if possible, avoided in the future. to pore over the literary shortcomings of twenty years ago, to attempt to patch a faulty work into a perfection it missed at its first execution, to spend one’s middle age in trying to mend the artistic sins committed and bequeathed by that different person who was oneself in youth - all this is surely vain and futile.” - Aldous Huxley. author of ‘brave new world’
and he gose on for about 3 pages. but that quotes long enough already. just thought you may like to take comfort in the knowlage that you are not the first to cringe at your early stuff and consider changing and or destroying it. its your work, do with it as you wish. but rember, whatever you’ve put on the internet stays on the internet. somewere.
October 18th, 2008 on 7:00 pm
Ben,
As everyone else seems to agree “you have to do what you have to do”.
That being said I too am a fan of your earlier “work”. I’m glad to hear that you won’t just be trashing it all or trying to hide it all in your closet with the blow-up dolls.
Our past is our past. We can’t relive it or re-make it. If we are lucky we learned from it and it has helped form us into who we are today. You may not have liked much of that point in your life.. looking back at least.. but it is still a part of you are. You want to change and that is a noble and worthy goal. You don’t have to be the “old-boh3m3″ anymore.. just accept that you were that guy once and like it or not it has made you who you are today. A man with great dreams who truly wants to better himself and his work.
If you need to edit some of your past works for “security and credibility” reasons that is understandable though. I hope you get where you want to go Ben. To see you become who you truly want to be will be an incredible thing.
~Chaos
October 18th, 2008 on 8:23 pm
So I take it you’re pretty impressionable, then.
I was actually a big fan of your earliest videos…up until maybe the One Year point. Then they just became something fun to watch, but not quite what I’d signed up for. Obviously there were a few videos in between that brought out the old, nameless Boh3m3…who was just Boh3m3, in and of itself.
You put a name behind the face, created a kingdom, sat on your thrown…then you slapped yourself and destroyed it.
I now have a wonderful mental image of you, I, and many other fans standing on a 4 by 4 rock in the middle of the ocean…fishing, while Caligula gives us the bloody finger.
Do us a favor, Ben…install a toilet on that rock, and bring some air fresheners.
One or two of those rubber duckies you’ve mentioned floating on would be nice as well.
And Devon is right. I have a few of your old videos downloaded, and stored some where in my own personal sea of files (Without a rock, sadly. Let me borrow yours sometime?).
October 18th, 2008 on 10:06 pm
I was wondering when it was going to happen. And I’m really glad it has. I pulled out of YT after some copyright BS…. I have to honestly say if is wasn’t for noticing your Xmen3 movie rant I would have never bothered with YT. There was something about that vid that hooked my curiousity and ever since then I have learned alot about internet drama and probably the net in general. I hope I can keep up to your leaps and bounds in creativity Ben. I know one thing, you are one in a handful of incredibly talented individuals that I can say I have had the pleasure of watching. All ego-stroking aside, you’re cool and you don’t need me to say it. P.S. if you want some of my money I want a DVD burnt :P
October 18th, 2008 on 10:31 pm
My brother acts the same way; never satisfied with the end results of his art & music and always fine-tuning, tweaking, re-doing or deleting it altogether. Luckily, he has me to reassure him that it’s okay. If I like it, others will too. Unfortunately, since he got married; all he does now is film his cats eating - pathetic!
Also, what a wonderful surprise to see you dressed up as hot-dog in this rap video (filmed last year with Caitlin Hill). Poormarcus1 finally uploaded it!
Let’s Hit the Club? - POOR Marcus ft. Gathouse
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DBEHTN6zDIk
October 19th, 2008 on 4:10 am
I won’t beat around the bush here so I’ll make it short and sweet. I rather enjoyed Haberdashery and looking forward to what you have to offer us with your new found sense of Steam Punk anecdotes yet still mixed with the same Ben we know and kept an eye on like a pedophile watching children play in the park (creepy yes, but none the more truthful). I started on YT watching your videos and being one of my first subscriptions your sense of humor still tickles me funny bone like a hooker with a feather, and sad is it sounds I started putting videos on YT of random spurts of 20-something retardation, but within the last few months of my last video I figured “Fuck it Batman; I’ll just use it as a portfolio for acting.” Since then I’ve been scripting and fine tuning my talents for an acting career that probably wont come, but it should bring the fun back to YT at least for me. And the bush has been beaten to death unintentionally again. Fuck.
I’ll make sure to look for your rock when I take my pirate ship “whaling”.
October 19th, 2008 on 7:58 am
Personally, the first video of yours that I saw, the one that got me interested, was Message. Not the rants, not the drama, although I watched and enjoyed that too.
For your own sake keep copies of what you’ve said. Otherwise 20 years down the line, you’ll realise that you can no longer remember what you used to be like.
As for me, I’ll always stick around because I like your style. Your writing, your attitude, your personality. It’s changed a lot in two years, of course, but then so have I!
I can’t say whether this is a good, mature decision, or another of your toddler moments where you kick down all your sandcastles because they didn’t turn out quite right. But hell, they’re your sandcastles, and maybe this way you’ll learn to make stuff like this. Metaphorically speaking.
Also, I’m struck by the uncomfortable realisation that I’ve seen you dressed as a hotdog before. That’s not deja vu anyone should ever have to feel.
October 19th, 2008 on 8:37 am
Ben,
The first time I ever saw one of your videos was when you were featured (the ‘No Swearing’ one). I think, and you’ll probably agree with me, that you honed your voice through YouTube. YouTube has become the new television for me. It’s no longer i just a community site, it’s a viable source for useless entertainment.
I’ve always appreciate that your opinion is your own, and you make that quite clear many, many times. Your videos always made for great discussions between my friends and I.
I’m also amazed at the quality of comments you have here in your blog. It’s obvious that it’s 500% better than the shit that comes out of YouTube commenters.
I’ll be back to visit again. Thanks for writing.
October 19th, 2008 on 9:17 am
Agreeing wholeheartedly that the quality of your viewers just shot up considerably when you decided to be Here instead of There. :)
I’m good with whatever process needs to happen for you… and looking forward with immense excitement for the next installment!
October 19th, 2008 on 9:39 am
“We’ll hyperbole our simile like a metaphorical swordfish ten miles long and powered by rocket fuel.”
First off, that was the most amazing sentence I ever read.
Second, I’m glad you’re finally happy with the stuff you’re doing. I’m sure you’ll do great. =]
October 19th, 2008 on 12:17 pm
Speaking as a former “angst ridden teen” it give me great pride to see you evolve from a surly waiter and into the artist I see on this site.
An artist free from all those other “YouTube Celebrities” and their little online cliques.
I would be lying if I said that those rants failed to make me giggle. However, I would trade in all of those giggles for the state of speachless awe I found myself in after witnessing the first instalmen of Haberdashery.
Thank you for all the hard work you put into it and thank you for this “Rock”
October 19th, 2008 on 1:11 pm
Totally support you. But I do love everything you’ve done.
I’ll bookmark this site, and I’ll pop in here whenever I get the chance. And wait intently for episode 2.
Have you thought of doing a few live shows on Blogtv when you got some free time? That would be cool. It would be nice to half some free, non-watered down comedy on that site. The prank calls get really annoying. Anyway.
Can’t wait for the new “boh3m3″. Whatever it is, I’ll probably get hard…. Not literally, of course.. .that would be weird.
October 19th, 2008 on 2:49 pm
who cares if you have only 1 video available on your channel ?
seems to me like you`re trying to change your channel instead of changing yourself
go DO something useful and stop wasting your time with youtube, with explanations and e-drama
October 19th, 2008 on 3:39 pm
Glad you found your true calling mate, however I think I’m going to stick around YouTube a little while longer. I don’t put out many videos and don’t have many subscribers but its one of the many ways I can keep in touch with my friends who are always the first to comment and rate. Thats enough to keep me happy.
I sat and watched all of your videos over the course of 3 nights. 3 very long nights. There was a lot to cover. There was not a single video that I didn’t enjoy on some level.
However, if I now have to venture out to this little rock on my daily internet voyages then so be it. Not many sites have the potential to recieve a position in my bookmark list and even fewer get a place on my Opera Speed-Dial. This site now has both.
Keep doing what you’re doing man. You fucking rock.
October 19th, 2008 on 4:11 pm
I’ve got similar thoughts behind what YouTube has become, at one point in my life I adored YouTube to the point I would label it my “hobbie”. Now the mere word/s “YouTube” scare the shit outta’ me.
Why? Because I feel it isn’t the same, it isn’t fun, it isn’t creative, it’s a mess. A giant mess, snowballing closer and closer to a 100% marketing buisness with no care in the world for the consumers. Not that YouTube had any great respect or care for it’s users. But, that is another story.
Moving on, which is precisely what you’re doing here, is a giant leap forward for yourself Ben, and alas every person that supported you and your potential through the last two years.
I’ve not only bookmarked this page now, it’s above YouTube. It’s what I check in on everyday, to see updates. I feel I don’t have to wait for a video anymore from you to update me, I can quite easily get it here. As for video content, you take your time with whatever you’re working on - if it’s a touch of Haberdashery, I look forward to it in great anticipation.
For what it’s worth, I’m behind you all the way. I would say I hope for great things on this site, but I feel it doesn’t need to be said. It’s touched my heart, and you’ve got your loyal “fans”, “friends” and or “subscribers” behind you aswell. Got your back every step of the way. And the only way is forward.
So, like my friend Will Smith says; If the world attacks, and you slide off track, remember one fact. I’ve got your back.
So have many others…
October 19th, 2008 on 5:46 pm
I totally agree on the Youtube perspective. When I joined, just about shortly after the time when your videos started coming out, I must say I enjoyed everything you produced. More importantly, I loved belonging to YT. Youtube was a site where blooming artists and film geeks could have some kudos, where teens could rant and rave. Now it’s a media-ridden sink hole filled with nothing more than illwill, ads, copyright fueds, and mostly idiots (With acceptions) trying to make names for themselves.
Regardless of what Youtube has become, you, my friend, are always changing. I find myself reading and watching productions from a person whom I’ve never spoken to or whathave you, but, while watching, I find myself enjoying every minute of it. You have a humourous, broad, opinionated mind, and for that I give you my praise. In this electronic world we live in, it’s hard to find anyone who isn’t getting paid for it to express thier total opinion. You’re a hero, Ben!
Remember, we’re just people watching you grow into the person that you want to become. We’re no more than an audience, hungry for the prose or videos you’ll give us next. For what it’s worth, do what you have to do. It’s your life, you’re just letting us be a part of it.
Peace,
~Tophat
PS. Loved Haberdashery, by the way. I look forward to any productions you have to post!
October 19th, 2008 on 5:57 pm
Hey Ben, It’s a little weird to hear you going on about the evils of youtu..I mean the bad place. I kinda expect it from Blunty but from you it’s a little harder to hear.
You were actually the first person I noticed on YT. Before I saw one of your randome vids I only thought of YT as a place to go watch 30 seconds of people taking objects to the groin to music. You actually introduced me to Vlogging. I’ll be frequenting this sight from now one. Thank man and good luck.
October 19th, 2008 on 6:45 pm
I love your originality. Marry Me. Great desicion, love the new peircing and the hair ! really … marry me ;)
October 19th, 2008 on 7:16 pm
20 years from now, when my kids ask, I will say that people like boh3m3, renetto, little loca, morbeck, and zenarcher made Youtube. You should be proud of the old work…it took a lot of guts to sit in your room and talk to “the internet”.
October 19th, 2008 on 9:48 pm
I too I stop posting on youtube. Either I have grown out of it or I am too busy living the student life here in the uk and working a bar job. I did make a few shall we say pen pals on there randomly. But its full of lot of twats now. My brother is doing well from it (he is featuring on a bbc3 show as an editor or something). Haberdashery is awesome, you have every right to be proud. The rock is comfy. Thanks for the invite. Mandy. P.s. I was the one who asked about the british voices.. not that it matters.
October 19th, 2008 on 9:52 pm
Also forgive any typos. Its nearly 6am and I just got back from work.
October 20th, 2008 on 12:58 pm
the old stuff wasnt bad. prob dated like u said tho. they will become interesting memory items to look back at in years to come. chow4now
October 21st, 2008 on 12:59 am
Ben,
I can honestly say I am glad to see you move on from Youtube, though it is a rather bitter-sweet moment. You’ve become a very inspiring person to many people, including myself, through your ideas, creativity, and take on life. I fully support your decision to take your “work” in this new direction, and I hope to see more videos like “Haberdashery,” it was endlessly entertaining. Though don’t forget, Ben, we still want to hear from you, every now and again, as I’m sure you enjoy hearing from us. I hope you will continue to keep us updated on your life with video logs, for you have always had a great charisma on film that was warming and entertaining. I only hope you don’t let the despise you have of your former video blogs detour you from making more. No one says you have to do it the same way.
You’re a creative and funny man, and I look forward to what you will be bringing to the table.
October 24th, 2008 on 3:45 pm
Boh3m3, I’m going to be quite honest, I absoloutely fucking loved your old videos, No swearing was the first video I Saw of yours back in 2006 when I Was a pissed up 6th grader with nothing better to do, And I Still get a fuck load of giggles out of Everything from your First video right up to “Another Damn Update”
No Swearing, Haters, Title, Now Look, I’m 15. I’ve pretty much been a self confessed and Avid Fanboy of yours, Even though theres been a few rough moments like the 1000 Revivals of Boh3m3 and complaining about there being no Inspiration, But before mid 2007 you just fucking ran with it and It came off as a “Individuals Funny Commentary on Life”
And I Also Recently deleted my videos due to looking at the Idiocy that I Projected into peoples Computer screens.
Anyway, I’d love to actually get into contact with you after two years.
November 6th, 2008 on 8:27 am
I just want to say that I respect your decision to leave you tube. Honestly when I joined over two years ago (yours was the first channel I subscribed to) being sick with cancer was not so bad as what you had to say or do for that matter kept me laughing or just put a smile on my face. Slowly though it was becoming obvious that you tube was changing and not for the better. That said, following you to another site? Most definitely and you’ll always have my support.
November 14th, 2008 on 2:52 am
Very nice, im glad you have made this decision. Nice website.
November 14th, 2008 on 9:10 am
Sup Ben,
I came back here after seeing the last youtube video entitled ‘Please Explain’ after I read this. Honestly Haberdashery didn’t do much for me and I didn’t watch the second one, It’s not really my kind of thing. So I’d guess a large chunk of the missng views is from people like me. I always liked seeing an angry waiter getting to speak to thousands about sometimes bullshit and sometimes quite morally profound things.
But since you’ve quite clearly laid out you plans and are “breaking up” with the now uninterested portion of your audience, I’ll be one of the unsubscribers. I’m still gonna come onto your site a bit to read becaue for the last couple of years I been watching you (doesn’t that sentence sound creepy….) You’ve been THE most honest and insightful person I’ve encountered on the tube. Don’t know if that’s a compliment to you or and insult to youtube, probably a bit of both. I’m glad for you that you still pursuing your art form and keeping it as pure as possible because really with your own art there’s nothing more important than you being honest and happy with it. Wish you the greatest success for the future.
Former Irish Boh3m3 Fanboy.
Take Care Ben
November 14th, 2008 on 1:03 pm
It’s understandable to pull out now. I’ve been watching your videos ever since you came out with the very first youtube commentary. There is only so much you could do until it gets cliche’ and mediocre. youtube isn’t what it use to be. I enjoyed your videos and respect what you have done in those videos and I wish you the best of luck.
November 14th, 2008 on 1:33 pm
i can’t really say i understand what u went through with youtube seeing as how i never put any videos up cuz i have no camera. however, i agree with the idea of u getting rid of the old “work” u’ve done on there. i know if i was you and i saw something that i didn’t like i would wanna get rid of it as soon as possible. its ure material, do with it what u like. and i’m not gonna bash haberdasherry b/c like it or not its something to watch. i didn’t make a youtube account just to sit and let it rot, i wanna watch videos for entertainment when i have nothing else to do. so like i said, its ure “work”, do what u want with it.
November 14th, 2008 on 3:14 pm
Ben
I am glad to see you back in the game with your OWN set of rules, and expectations. As one of your early subscribers of ‘05 I just want to say I remember seeing you through so many fazes in your life – from ALabama and onward. Ben, just make yourself happy, that was my message to you back then, and still is.
peace
November 14th, 2008 on 3:54 pm
Good to see new stuff from you, keep up the awesome work man.
November 14th, 2008 on 7:01 pm
I love your commentary videos, don’t really care where they’re at.
As far as low views on Haberdashery- for my part, I watched the first and just plain didn’t care for it. I’m not going to judge the quality or anything, it looked well done and all that, I just didn’t care for it, so I skipped the second one when it came up in my list.
I may not be the only one who did that.
November 14th, 2008 on 11:27 pm
yep you got me on the youtube rant you did, but still it had to be dun i gues.
good job on your annamatoin vids, keep it up, i will look fowerd to your tutarials, ok good luck and have fun,
November 15th, 2008 on 9:23 am
Hey Ben.
I just wanted to say, I agree about the Youtube thing. I’ve been watching your channel for half the time it’s been up, (a year) and I’ve gone back and watched your old stuff. But I agree that in the time I began watching to now, Youtube has changed drastically. And that’s sad, because I see all my favorite Youtubers just being tossed aside. Your generation of Youtubers changed the face of it, and I do have to say it was more the fault of your generation. The people that put the site on the map (save a select few) were beginning to make money off the site, and that made Youtube realize what kind of a money-gaining property Youtube could be. I’m a Youtuber myself, though I’ve only made a few videos. I need a new camera, mom took away my old one because she didn’t like me cursing on the internet.
But anyways, I agree about the state of Youtube, but at the same time I think I’m going to stick with the site. Not because I want to join the throngs of people who take advantage of its property, but because it’s kinda become an out for me and my personality, something, sadly, I have to restrict myself from in the real world.
Keep it real, Benny-boy.
November 16th, 2008 on 6:21 pm
It is good to see you growing,
see your talent glowing,
to see you.
Oh, yes, that does mean that I kind of like those old farts in totally gear wheelchairs. But what I like better is your working. Fucking hard. Not just yelling at a computer. You got that part right. Now, when you… but that is for you to find. Hopefully I will live long enough to see you grow through several more… lives.
“In the zoo the children whine and fuss,
talking of hippopotamus.”
— — — — — — — – S.T.Smellypoot.
December 4th, 2008 on 2:31 pm
I’m glad I held out. I found your early stuff at a time when I was lonely and needed another voice in the silent void. You were that voice. Rant, review, dramatic plea for less drama, or just talking about You - I tuned in. I spent 4 days watching and re-watching the old stuff to catch up on what you were posting weekly. Whether or not you like it now, everyone has got to start somewhere. The “Boh3m3″ that appeared on those videos needed to be released to allow the “Ben” you are now to rise to the top. Congrats, and I can’t wait to see what happens next. :)